Here I Go Again . . .

Posted on March 6, 2008
Filed Under Trusting God, Courage |

Yesterday I met with one of the youth pastors at my church. Seems they are doing a “Sex Education” series and I’ve been asked to speak. As always, my initial response was absolutely, emphatically, positively, impossibly no. Initially. Now, however, I’m scheduled in three weeks. How do I get myself in these situations?

Here’s the thing about speaking: it terrifies me. I can sing in front of anyone - and often want to . . . all the time. But speaking, well, that requires a trip outside of the boat and onto the water that, every time I actually do find myself venturing out and making it safely back on solid ground I say, “I’ll never do that again!” And yet . . .

Listening to Greg so passionately talk to me about the kids that God has entrusted to him moved me to a place beyond my fears and into a position of service. Could You possibly use me to encourage them? The answer is, I don’t know and we’ll see. I feel a little like Caleb when he at 85, 45 years after his desert journey began, declared that he would try to take the promised land . . . and that in his effort “perhaps the Lord will be with me.” Perhaps indeed. And yet the opportunity to fall flat on my face in the name of God is thrilling, enticing even . . . because there’s also the chance that God’s presence will overwhelm my own insecurities and cause me to soar, taking others along with me.

Perhaps indeed.

Peace and Blessings,