So Let it Be

Posted on October 3, 2007
Filed Under Uncategorized, Trusting God, Work, Courage |

Today begins my last week at my current job where I have been employed for nearly 5 years. In the past years my co-workers have seen the best of me . . . and the worst. We have healed, laughed, fought, cried, eaten, partied, prayed, envisioned, fallen and gotten up again together. This particular job has assisted me in becoming the person I am today. Before now I only dreamed of being a published writer; this job made it a reality. Next year the company will be relocating to Colorado from California. The move has been in planning stages for many years, and most the employees have resisted the inevitable. Not many of us desire to leave California and begin again in the beautiful Rocky Mountain state of Colorado. As I’m reflecting upon the last and sometimes tumultuous five years, I realize that I’m all the better for it.

Before I left for maternity leave, I started praying and asking God to reveal the vision for my next career move. I sensed deep in my soul it was time for me to move on. I prayed for direction and insights to reveal what was next. I wanted to be in a work environment that utilized my creativity more, while allowing me flexibility to be available for my son. On my final work day before my son’s birth I said my goodbyes and packed my personal belongs, intending to never return. As I turned on the car ignition, India Arie’s voice sang out of the radio “So let it be”. My heart skipped a beat; this confirmed my feeling that my time at there was complete. The 7 months I was home with my son I continued to pray for the next career step, and there was nothing. I didn’t understand. As my time at home came to an end, I began to worry some, but deep inside I stood faithful that God would deliver in the perfect time. The day I returned to work I was confused and somewhat disillusioned, returning to work was not a part of my plan. I felt being with our Zion was not only what I wanted, but God’s desire as well. So why wasn’t it happening?

A close friend suggested that I return to work and ask for exactly what I needed: part-time hours, Fridays off, and the ability to work from home. I had never been willing to stand for myself and make request that would support my wellbeing in the past, not at this job or any other for that matter. I prayed and did just that, surprisingly they agreed to each requests. And within 2 weeks, I received another job offer.

Looking back I believe I went back for the purpose of courageously asking for what I wanted and needed to support me and my family, and to strengthen my faith. Doing so taught me to trust my inner guidance; it is a direct connection to God and not to be doubted. My new job is miles closer to my home, I can take Zion to work with me when necessary, I’ll be doing work I’m very enthusiastic about, and the office is located in my favorite neighborhood. God showed up and showed out!

2 Corinthians 5:7
We live by faith, not by sight.

I guess I’m saying all this to encourage you to trust your inner knowing. Whatever you’re experiencing in your life at this time - the break through you are waiting for is on the horizon. Be still and know. Ask God to reveal His idea for you, then live everyday in expectation and gratitude for a perfect manifestation. Trust what you feel in your soul even if your outer experience is contrary. It’s just a matter of time. You can’t miss what God has divinely designed for you.

Peace and Blessings
Monique Ruffin-James
Growing the Goodness!